Things have not been very easy for me over the last 2 months or so.  And I know that God doesnt give you any more then you can handle, but some days I wonder.  Ever since the DBar opened back up I have worked my tail off.  and for that matter am still working my tail off.  Back the end of May, we were told at my Full time job (Perfetto) that in July our hours would be cut to get through some tough months.  So I am going from a full time job to a part time and it sucks.  from 80 hours to 48 hours.  The world and the economy are so bad now. Just makes you wonder how much of this one person can handle.  So to compensate for the hours lost, i am working more at my part time job which is turning out to be my full time job.  Go figure.  So the everyday life things that pop up like:  the AC going out in your house and that you will need to put in a new furnace this fall or you will have CO2 in your house...just about make you want to cry.  We got the AC fixed $980 later.....and the furnace will have to come in the fall..... $3000 dollars later(not now of course but soon) But the furnace was the one that my husbands dad put in when they built the house and that was 30 some years ago... so I know that it well do.  We have leaks from the massive amount of rain we had a month ago and those need fixed... the house needs a new roof....  I wont go on... but you get the picture.  I keep thinking..... just when I get ahead....  BAMB. (as emeril would say)  these things happen.  It is just emotionally draining.  But wait.....  there is more.  Right before my birthday (turned 33 years on the 31st of May)   i started my period.... which I hadnt had for several months.  Not normal cycles which I have had for the last several years.  Well I went a day and then stopped.   two days later, it started back up..... and lets just say it is July 11 and I am still bleeding.  I have been to the doctor numerous times and I just am at my whitts end.  They did ultra sound  (no baby.... nothing they could see - cyst ect)  So I had 2 options, start the pill again after 7 years, or start clomid to get pregnant.....   OH BOY!!!  I would love to have another one... I think...  Oh I dont know.  So I opted to go on the pill.  Still Bleeding.  Somedays lighter ... somedays I feel like a flood is coming out!!(almost like after having a baby)  They tested my blood and I am not anemic  blah blah blah.....  Some days I feel great.... some days I  feel really bad!!!  I am just tired of this problem whatever it may be.  just dont know what to do.  So sarah when you commented on me being down.... this is why.  I have just not been myself in the last several months and I just want things to change.

On a happier note:

We miss you!!!   TOO CUTE!!!!

and  the fact that he is saying BUTT!!

These make me smile.  I have yet to learn how to download pictures off of the digital camera/. so when I do there will be pictures of lexter!!

I am working on getting a small box to you sissie!!  They will have some things for little man " or as brick calls him "rootbeer:  (those little tike drill, say and nail gun)  so funky gum, some reading materials, a copy of a movie called "flywheel" which was a movie before "facing the giants"  and a few other little things!!  Well, it is getting late.  I love you all... keep me in your prayers as I struggle with everyday life things.  Good NIGHT!!

under my feet, thank god the sky wasnt tumbling down.  We had a 5.2 earthquack this morning at 4:30.  It was a pretty good shake.  It woke Freddie up and nothing wakes him up.  We are all okay.  No damage to report no injures, just weird feeling.  We had a slight aftershoke around 10:30.  My first thoughts were is this the end!!  Other news to report, we have a new addition to the family.  No its no babies....Fred and I are the owners of a 2003 Jeep grand cherrokee like our old one.  It is quite nice.  well I gotta scoot.

love you all  we are fine